Blue Jackets goaltender Elvis Merzlikins reveals trauma since the death of his former teammate and best friend

"I'm gonna be honest, for the opening night, I didn't have time (to prepare) (...) We all know what happened to him. When I heard the cannon, I felt my heart. I never heard in my life my heart beating that alive. That was a really weird feeling, what I had (...) I'm gonna be honest even when we scored goals, I was always closing my eyes and getting myself ready. I think that's just the trauma, but it went away. Obviously, now when I hear the cannon, I'm happy. But that was the feeling I had in the start of the season," said Merzlikins.